A New Day

Ok... so if anyone who reads this might know, my ex made it very difficult for me to move on. I have been carrying around this for many years now and have felt the weight every step of the way.... until now!

The other day, I realized why I went through that; It was to help someone else. A neighbor (the first person I met in my condo building) came in and I could sense that something was wrong. She started to tell me a tale of verbal and physical abuse and all flashed back to me. All I could do was to hold her, tell her to cry it out and to share my story.

After sending her back to her condo with the relief that she was not the only one out there in this situation, I went for the longest walk of my life. I cried.... but this time it was not tears of sadness.... but tears of joy that a weight had been lifted from so many years of heart break and loneliness... It is gone. A new day has come along and I can finally breathe again. I just felt everything lift and I can truly see why I went through this... to help someone else. And that is more important to me than anything I can ever imagine!

There is no quote for the day - just a song recommended from a co-worker:

Joshua Radin - "Brand New Day" ( I think you should listen to it!)

P S...

P S I Love You..... so this movie makes me cry every single time I watch it and I tend to watch it when I am feeling down.... NOT GOOD!

Last night I was a little blue (and no... not because of the election) and decided to put it on... BIG MISTAKE! I always makes me reflect on love, life and friends. And I cannot help to think will I ever be truly happy in love, life and friends? Don't get me wrong, I know I have the most wonderful group of friends, a great life... but the other... it just never seems to work for me.

I know what you are thinking.... boo hoo.... poor Jerry... But it crosses my mind all the time these days. I want the great love affair where if my partner dies, will plan ahead to make me remember our love but to also help me move on.

It seems like everyone around me gets what I want and feel like I deserve. I see everyone in wonderful relationships... both new and old... and think "When will it ever be my turn?"

We will just have to wait and see....

Quote for the Day: Gerry Kennedy: Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you!